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It's always been a tough life after 18.

I'm a romantic and dramatic person. I love to imagine many good things would happen to me and my dear friends. I love peace, I love everything perfect, everyone's happy.Tat's why i hate death.

I always tought everyone is same like me, at least my mum.

But unfortunately I'm wrong.

Both of us were in a fight lastnight because I said she doesn't respect life, she doesn't care people life, it's selfish. It maybe a little too harsh I know, but I just can't stand the way she comments on people life, and death.

"Good, good lar. The world has too many people now, so better more people die. So the world be peace."

All this comes from my dad. He predict the ice berg is goin to melt in a few years time, because of the destroy to environment, and da-dah... India, Bangladesh, Jawa and many countries would be gone.

I again put my sympathetic on it, says why like dis one.... And my mum says the above words.

I hate it. I feel bad. Since when me and my mum have diff thinking towards people dead? I always think all of this are fate, it should be decided by God. Not us who can give comment on it. But my mum was mad at me saying so, she says y im so 38 leh? I dunno.

Probably I'm too stupid or what, as she says, always too kindheart, easily get cheated by people. At least don't say a GOOD word on people's death. It's cruel when their beloved ones were crying and mourning for the rest of their life while we in the other side say good.

For me its a simple respect and not looking down on people. Just that easy.

Mum, i hope you know what I mean. Have you ever think, what if the same case happen to me? I mean touch wood la, if people did the same thing to me, what would you feel????